being brave

I wrote this for a writing class. No one but Dr. Phelps has ever seen it until now. Please keep your laughter to yourself.

Sanctuary
Last day together in a
Golden, almost silent church,
A sanctuary,
Soft leaves underfoot.
Memories of things to be
Unspoken reassurance.
Sudden giddiness.
Sudden silence.

Hello my name is Robynne....

and I am addicted to flirting.

My friend Dave and I have recently discovered that we share an affliction. We are both incorrigable flirts. Which is a very bad thing when we hang out together. Especially when we hang out together with our other friends, including guy-I-almost-dated.

I feel bad afterwards, but at the time it's like I have no control over myself. We feed off each other. My biggest problem is that I'm addicted to physical affection, but since I get, like, none, even the littlest does me in. It's like alcohol. If you drink lots of it you develop a high tolerance. It seems I can't hold my affection. I get a high off it like you wouldn't believe.

We tell each other all the time that we're going to start behaving now and stop with the flirting but then we do it all over again. And it's not just with my friend Dave, I flirt with everyone! Arg, I'm very frustrated with myself over it. If anyone has any brillient ideas, please feel free to share, I'm all ears.

well...

well, it's 12:01 and my birthday is officially over. It ended up being 180 degreees different from what I was expecting. I figured I'd go to work, come home, do laundry, play with the baby, then go to Bible study and hang out and maybe go see a movie afterwards. The most I was hoping for would be to get to pick the movie.

So, I went to work, came home, did laundry, played with the baby, went to Bible study and surprise! My sister and my friends threw me a surprise party. I was expecting my birthday to be no big deal but everyone made such a fuss over me tonight. Not only did they throw me a party, but they called my mom and got my favorite kind of cake ever (angel food cake with strawberries, I have it for my birthday every year) AND ice cream. Peanut butter and chocolate ice cream, yum!

My sister brought a box full of decks of cards and I taught my new friends how to play nertz. We used to play it all the time in high school. It's kinda like communal solitaire, very fun, very hard if you're not good at multi-tasking. Then we came back to my house and played my new favorite game Disney Scene-it.

All in all it was an excellent birthday. I'm going to go to bed now in my new pajamas, yay!

Happy Birthday to me

well, it will officially be my birthday in 50 minutes. I have reached the ripe old age of 23. I don't feel any different.

We should just stop having birthdays at 21, there's nothing exciting after that. I never really had much a birthday celebration last year since I had just driven from Oklahoma and was very pregnant at the time. I think I spent my last birthday un-packing.

I'm planning to spent part of this birthday working, but only two classes and I'm not going in tomorrow afternoon to work the desk. I'm gonna get my toes done and maybe go hang out in the backyard and work on my tan. I'm looking forward to it, actually. It'll be nice not to have to go to work to do nothing for four hours. That may sound like fun to you but not to me.

Anyways..happy birthday to me.