Tuesday, April 19, 2005

if I think of a snappy title I'll come back and edit this one...

So that little thing called life has been interfearing with my ability to keep my eyes open, which affects my ability to update this thing.

Work has been very busy. The studio I teach at does both the Royal Academy of Dancing's exams, as well as the American Academy of Ballet's Performance Awards. The kids have to learn some set exercises then perform them. The RAD exams are done in a closed room with no one there aside from the students and the examiner (an outside teacher sent by the RAD). Performance Awards is done in front of a judge and family is encouraged to come and watch. We did our Performance Awards at a local high school theater this year which was very fun. Both of them took place at the beginning of the month, exams were April 4th and Performance Awards were on April 9th. Talk about a stressful week! I was very proud of all my students and I thought all of them did an excellent job.

The baby is keeping me very very busy as well. She's got four teeth on top now to join the two she got on bottom for Christmas. It looks so funny when she smiles. She's busy pulling ehrself up on all the furniture and is getting very brave. She likes to stand up, then let go with one hand and wave it around. As soon as she lets go with the other she falls down though. Sometimes she gets very smart and leans against the furniture so she can wave around both arms. But then she still falls over. She is also very busy taking the safety plugs out of the outlets. She likes to chew on them.

In other news, I am officially single again (not that I was ever official not single but that's not the point). I also dyed my hair veyr red and chopped it off. It's not the shortest it's ever been, but pretty short. The longest bits graze my shoulders now.

The baby had her first sleep-over on Sat. That was weird. My parents and I and some other friends of mine went to see the Lion King musical on Sat night and my sister took the baby to stay with her for the night. The show was fantastic! When Daniel and I went to the Field Museum in Chicago, there was an exhibit going on about Julie Taymor's costumes for the show. We didn't see it because it was extra but they had some of the people in costumes wandering around the musem. Wow! If I thought those were cool they were nothing compared to seeing the show. I had tears in my eyes half the show it was just so beautiful. I was amzed by how simple all the costumes seemed to be, even thought I'm sure they must have been extremely complex to design and create. The hyena costuems especially intrigued me. I was very glad I had my little binoculars so I could get a closer look at how they worked. It was just beautiful how the costumes themselves were such an integral part of the show's effect.

Speaking of costumes. Guess what I'll be in this November. Something I never thought I'd be roped into doing again. Oh yes, Nutcracker. No dancing for me this time, I've been roped into being Clara's mother. Go figure, the one scene I always avoided being in I'll now be a central part of. Oh well, it'll be fun to be on stage again. I do miss it.

I thik that's just about all of my news lately. Hopefully I'll be able to update a little more frequently now. And right on cue, the baby just woke up form her nap...

Sunday, April 03, 2005

musings

I was watching edTV this morning (it's amazing the awful cheesey movies they play on Sunday mornings) and one of the characters said something half-way interesting. I can't remember the exact words but it was along the lines of, "I'm a coroner. Ask me what's wrong after a relationship has ended and I can pinpoint the cause of death. But in them, I'm lost."

It's been over a year since I last spoke to Molly's father. I look back now and I can see just how much he manipulated me. It's scary now, actually. I can see how he alienated me from my friends, my support group in Oklahoma. It started with Daniel, then my roommate, then anyone in general. He was starting on my family when things between us finally ended. I'm so thankful that something in my head turned back on when he started subtley trying to alienate me from my family. I can only imagine the horror and mess my life would have become if I stayed with him. *shudder* It's a Lifetime movie of a nightmare.

Thank you Daniel for not giving up on me and for convincing me to come home. I owe you my life.