finished

I started this awhile ago....it felt finished at the time. Life's changed since then, I've changed since then, now it feels finished. It still needs a title though.

I try to put my feet down
But the waves come too fast
And the sand shifts.
Suddenly I’m drowning,
I can’t stand

You were everything I wanted.
You were everything I needed.
But I closed my eyes too tight,
And now I’m miles from where I want to be.

Unreachable, taunting.
Perfection runs from me,
Leaving me stripped.
Stranger with an offer,
I can’t refuse.

You offered everything I wanted.
You offered everything I needed.
But I closed my eyes too tight,
And now I’m a thousand miles from where I want to be.

Surrender, I give up.
Every choice to walk forward
Only leaves me shaking.
As I slip beneath,
Waves crash overhead.

I gave up everything I wanted.
Gave up everything I needed.
I closed my eyes so tight,
And now I don’t know where I want to be.

Take one step, another.
Each one makes the next
Come easier.
The tide is flowing
I can breathe.

I see new things that I’m wanting.
I see new things that I’m needing.
My eyes are opened wide,
Suddenly I’m inches from where I want to be.

Merry Christmas!

I love Christmas. It is absolutely my favorite holiday. I love the lights, I love the carols (real carols, not cheesy holiday music), I love the food, I love catching up with people and getting Christmas cards in the mail. I love it all. This year was even better because for once I actually had the money to spend on people like I wanted to and I had the baby to spoil.

Between my parents and I the baby has enough clothes to last three weeks without doing laundry (YAY!), tons of books, an exersaucer, a little couch-thingy, a dog made out of big wooden beads that she's constantly chewing on and a three foot lion. I'm naming the lion Aslan. It's gorgeous. Big enough that I could confortably lean against it to read a good book and it has the most gentle, peaceful face. Heck, if she doesn't love it I will!

I mostly got clothes, which was good because I need them. My mom got me a beautiful leather jacket which I love to bits and my little brother got me volume 2 of Invader Zim on DVD. It's awesome but totally makes me miss Daniel :(

One downer is that I've been sick for the last 3 1/2 weeks. I haven't felt really ill for about two weeks, but I'm all congested and can't shake this terrible cough I've got and now my mom is sick too. I was hoping that having two weeks to rest would help but I feel like I'm just getting worse so I end up going to the doctor sometime this week.

One of my best friends sang my favorite carol in church tonight...I get shivers every time.....

O Holy night,
The stars are brightly shining.
This is the night of our dear saviour's birth.
Long lay the world
In sin and error pining,
'Till he apeared
And the soul felt it's worth.

A thrill of hope,
The weary world rejoices
For yonder breaks the new and glorious morn.
(cue shivers)
Fall on your knees,
'O hear the angel voices.
'O night divine,
'O night, when Christ was born.
'O night, divine,
'O night, 'O night divine.

yeah I suck I know

So it’s been a long time since I blogged. Life’s been pretty hectic since that last post. Here’s the recap:

Nutcracker was a huge success. Everyone got on stage with all their costume pieces on so my job was done. I feel like I really proved myself that week. I did what needed to be done. The night before the show I went out to dinner with my boss, a bunch of the teachers and the two principle dancers we hired to dance the Sugar Plum Fairy and her cavalier -Chan Hon Gho and Peter Boal. It was great to be treated as an equal by the people who were my superiors last time I did this production. The principles were very friendly, I got to sit next to Peter Boal which was fun.

The baby is busy rolling around and spitting on everything. She’s discovered her hands and feet lately which is very fun to watch. I took her to see Santa on Sunday she was so cute! The baby in front of her screamed the second she saw Santa but Mol just gave him a good looking over, decided he was ok and grinned for the camera. She’s such a good baby. She got sick for the first time this weekend which wasn’t so fun. Poor thing has an ear infection.

I had a bunch more thoughts to put in this post while I was driving to work this morning but that was over 12 hours ago, I can’t remember that far back.